Back in my teens, I practiced the first form of meditation I ever learned, which was from a book on the Silva Method. It helped train my mind more than connecting me to my Higher Self.
Through my 20s and 30s, I researched and studied many other kinds of meditation systems - even training under a shaman. While I certainly received some form of "guidance," I had no way of discerning where it was coming from and if it was in my best interest. And I wondered,
Why don't I feel more protected? Supported? Empowered?
What I DID notice, however, was that I didn’t feel anymore “connected” through the practice of those other methods. Furthermore, I knew I was not evolving towards the full realization of my potential.
This un-retouched photograph was taken in the spring of 2006, shocking the photographer and me with the appearance of the light of the Higher Self above and around me. You can see how it is mostly concentrated above my head because I was once erroneously taught that is "where it belongs." Sadly this belief was keeping my Higher Self from helping me in Its full capacity. The other colored lights around my chest are other energies "competing for input" but are clearly seen to not be of the true essence, nor as powerful as the Higher Self.